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So, yesterday was the end of my Law module and I went to 313@Somerset…Forever21 is 4 levels high…it was filled with so many women…ranges from 12 – 30+…each level depicts a different concept of F21…beautifully done…love the chandelier hang elegantly down at the main entrance…and Zara is 3 floors…nothing much to expect from Zara’s decorations…bought couple of accessories from F21…they are so cheap and pretty… =) after my exam, I was so tired and I couldn’t peck myself up with everything…from lemon favored fisherman’s friend to walking pass the shops that were on sale in Centerpoint…nothing caught my attention…even my favorite clothing brand Mango was having a sale up to 50% off all regular prices…But F21 caught my attention…I look very forward to all the newly opened shopping malls in Singapore…One day, I believe Orchard Road will be one of the best shopping location for tourist…Although some brands are still not brought into Singapore…

After staying so many years in Singapore, I’m already so localized…From the accent of my Aussie English to now, the accent of Singaporean & some slang of British English…and my taste of food…from light and simple favors to spicy and strong favors…at this point of time, you might have started thinking why did I start this topic???No link and so random, right???

In fact, its neither no link nor so random…But I was thinking about leaving Singapore…Because I have a couple of choices offered to me…firstly, my company’s main company’s lady boss, my god mum, wants me to learn new things and the way they operate the company in Japan…Secondly, I also would be in Japan but this is to help my uncle with his Japan travel agency…Thirdly, getting my ass back to Hong Kong to help my dad’s family business because my cousins and nephews are not showing any interest in the food industry line…Apparently, its a chain of restaurants that I would be mending if I were to head over there…And Lastly, Back to my country, Australia…most of my relatives are living in Aussie…and I miss my darlings (Golden Retrievers, house & R34)….I have been given a chance to swap my nationality from this current place as I have been living here for 12 years…I didn’t gave them a reply or shown any interest on this offer… =) smart aye?

I still cant make up my mind on what I really want to do or where I would want to stay…With such circumstances that had happened in my family, I’m having a very hard time to decide now…I want to get this over by the first half of next year…I hope I could…

Update on my uncle

He went for a CT scan…Apparently, the results doesn’t reflect a good sign on his health…I guess the 1 year period for him to live is for real and it is so confirmed already…Now, I’m trying to fork out 2 evenings in a week of my time to accompany him…I brought him a HUGE stack of DVDs over to his house…we were watching all the comedy and laughing like some lunatic…we were sitting beside each other and munching on homemade pop-corn…I didn’t know that his entertainment system was such a good one…love the sound effects…if the room was sound proof from the other human activities in the house, it would be like a cinema… =) I remembered my uncle and me were laughing so much that he smacked his hand on my thighs and I saw his gratefulness of me doing such a little thing like bringing a couple of DVDs to occupy his time and accompanying him… =) When he knows that I was bored with nothing to do, he would try his best to keep me entertained by showing me the cook books he bought and showing off to me that he had learned most of the dishes and he could cook any of them for me…he kept asking me to pick a dish out for him to cook for me… =) he’s such a nice uncle… I love him so much… =) I pray to God everyday to wish that his health would improve and asked my beloved Aunt Tina to bless him everyday when I pass by the church where she was laid to rest at, while I’m on my way to school and going back home from school…it had been a routine for me to pray to God and wish everyone good health since young…i hope God could give him a miracle…

Alrighty, I’m going to stop writing and hit the sacks…I’m so tired from the meet up with a High School friend at Thomson Plaza’s Starbucks…She was talking to me for hours and I listened and gave suggestions and advises… =)

Good night…

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What will you do if you know that your sickness is taking your life away and you only have 1 year left to live???

Everyone in the family knows that our uncle only have a year to live, except himself…but we are praying for a miracle to happen…Will God take pity on him and give us the miracle that we are looking forward to???Is it even fair to hide this truth away from him???I would vote to tell him because he can do whatever he wants to during this short period of 1 year time…

Couple of days ago, I text my uncle some cute forwarded text and I add some of my encouragement words after that…but what he replied me was sad…I wrote “Uncle, everyone loves you a lot…with all the love, you will get well very soon…don’t worry”…and he replied “Thank you everyone for your kindness…I want to live life to the fullest so don’t worry, I will be alright…” How can God take a person away who treasure life so much???Why don’t God take the lifes of those who dun treasure life and waste their life away by taking drugs and all those nonsense stuff???Life is unfair…

Last Sunday, I visited him and accompany him from afternoon until night…I wanted to give him a big bear hug but I was afraid I might hurt him because he looks so weak and fragile now…not like the uncle who have been playing and taking care of me…He was the sporty, a little muscular, tan skin, slim, tall, keeps a short and neat hair do…he looks at least 15 years younger than his actual age of 54…but now, he had aged so much he looks like his actual age…which pains my heart so much whenever I see him…

But looking on the bright side, this life-changer had brought all the family members closer and together we will give him our utmost support to battle with his disease… =)

p/s, Although this life-changer had brought all the family members closer, I’m still not close to the “you-know-who” ‘uncle’ of mine…I still hate him… (>”<)

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You may wonder why is the title “picking up the shredded pieces up…”?

It wasn’t easy for me to accept the actual fact that my favorite uncle who dotes on me the most on my mum side had cancer…In fact, he is suffering from liver cancer…For days, I didn’t talked to any body…I was only talking to my family and couple of close friends…things lighten up after I went to pray for him…I went to the church and temples around Singapore to pray for his health to recover…Most of you who had tuned yourself into my previous blogspot blog would have known that I’m a Catholic but after an incident after my Beloved Aunt’s funeral, I turned myself away from Catholic…I chose to be a free-thinker…I went to temples to pray and offer to shorten a couple of years of my life to give life to my uncle…

Things changed tremendously after my Aunt’s passed-on…she was like a mother to me as she didn’t had daughters only two sons…she taught me about life…how should a woman live her life…she was my role model…but I didn’t took her advise when I was younger, instead I wasted my life but she still had my utmost respect when I was in the rebellious stage of my life…Her death changed me into a better person…My past was terrible…I hit the clubs almost every night…I didn’t went to lectures because I couldn’t wake up…I preferred working than studying…I ran away from home and rented an apartment at Holland Village area to live alone…I was not that “someone who a guy would bring home to tell his mum that he wants to marry me” kinda girl…

And now, I’m just another tame little daddy’s girl again…Life had really dropped a few big bombs on me…But I know I would be able to make it through each time…because I will always have my family’s support…

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I couldn’t find any where to vent my frustrations out…Last evening, upon receiving some saddening news, I was devastated…but I couldn’t cry…I had to be strong for my mum who was crying as she broke the news to me…I had no feelings or what so ever…Neither could I cry nor I was able to speak to any body…I was at a total lost…

I was looking for something for me to vent my frustrations but I couldn’t…I was searching high and low for my hand written diary which I kept for years…but I couldn’t find…I gave up searching and lay down on my bed…thinking about my aunt who left me 6 years ago after a year long battle with leukemia (cancer of the blood)…and now my uncle intestinal or colon cancer…will God take him away from us???

Why is God taking away all the kind souls in my life away from me???1st my beloved aunt…and next target is my uncle???Why???I still can’t understand…I’m still not talking to anyone…I’m keeping everything to myself again…I’m afraid that I might lose him during the battle of cancer he will be going through…

When I visited him yesterday at his home, he was so skinny…I could see he is left with bones and some flesh…its so painful to see a family member who is so dear to you to be suffering silently…and you can’t do any thing to help him to relieve his pain…

All I could do now is to hope he recover from the surgery he done 2 weeks ago to remove the intestine which was inflamed…nurse back his health to fight the battle with cancer…he is still haven’t know the truth about cancer…I wish I could give him all my strength to face with the reality…I hope my aunt will take over his role of the pillar of the family…I hope everything could be the best for their family now…

God had taken my grandfather, Aunt away due to cancer…and now my dearest uncle must fight on to live…I want him to see us grow up…he always encouraged me to study hard since young…he always dote on me although he have 3 daughters…he must live on…he have to…he have to prove to God that although he is God, he can’t just take people away from the rights to live when he loves and treasures life!!!

I’m a Catholic…but now, my faith for my religion is not there anymore…I had lost my faith…I don’t trust God anymore after so many incidents that he took people so dear to me away…

Sorry for those who is waiting patiently for my official blog opening…But I’m so busy studying my 2nd degree…Now, I’m studying on Law…its so boring but I’m working real hard to get all As for my result…and I cant find the suitable person to do up my blog yet…

Alrighty, I’m going off soon to my uncle’s home to accompany him…Please help me pray for him…because no one can take my uncle away from my family…my grandmother had went through enough of pain already…at the age of 88, she seen her mother passed on, then her friends, then my grandfather, then my aunt whom she dote on the most…but not now, not this time…my uncle has to live on for us… =) he is a very strong man…

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