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The Finale of a chapter in my life

Jan — Thu, 15 Jul 2010 08:44:25 +0000

It is the finale.

I did not expect this would be the end between me and him. We were quarreling about nonsensical stuffs that I do not see a point in talking about at all. He raised his voice at me over the phone. When I wanted to speak, he spoke louder to cover over my voice. Although I was at a verge of throwing my worst temper at him, I stopped myself by hitting my pillow. I teared a couple of times while trying to talk when he did not gave me a chance to explain and speak what’s in my mind. After he had quieten down, I said in a very calm and composed manner, “Let’s break up.”. I guess it marked the end of my hopes and dreams to have a “happily ever after” ending with him. I gave up, putting my hands up and surrender and hanging the white flag above my door. All he wanted for me is to understand him better and all I wanted was for him to understand me better. Both individuals from different back ground, different past experiences and different up bringing trying their best to compromise each other but failed.

He was younger than me by 2 years. Perhaps different mentality? Or does it boils down to my bad temper, self-centered and unreasonable behavior? I had been really angry and pissed with him, but I have never ever threw my temper on him because I love him. He had threw his bad temper at me before. I forgave him time to time again, in the hope of him changing for the better for our future. I had to admit he changed a couple of his bad behavior for us. It still boils back to his character and personality, I guess. Like the phrase “Leopards will never change it spots”.

Perhaps, this was Fate playing upon us. Or maybe we were never meant to be together… …

An interesting post from my old blog address…

Jan — Mon, 03 May 2010 06:58:14 +0000

I found this old Word document file while clearing my desktop…I clicked opened and I saw this post from my previous blogger addressed blog…Suddenly, I remembered that I did save this post to let Vincent Lau to read what I wrote on my blog before…by the way, my old blog was on private and I didn’t wanted my friend to read the whole chuck of my life, so I showed him a couple of posts…hmmm…now I’m wondering where are the other posts that I saved for his viewing…

Here it goes…

What is L.O.V.E ???
Saturday, December 30, 2006

I have been having sleepless nites this few days and i would love to share wif all of u my dear friends a little piece of my mind as you will never thought that JKD could be such a “thinking” person…

When u thk of ur past love, u may view it as a failure. But when u find a new love, u view the past as a teacher.In the game of love, it doesn’t really matter who won or who lost. What is important is u noe when to hold on and when to let go…

U noe u really love someone when u want him or her to be happy, even is his or her happiness means tat u’re not part of it.Everything happens for the best. If the person u love doesn’t love u back, don’t be afraid to love someone else again, for u’ll nv noe unless you give it a try.

U’ll nv truly love a person u love unless u risk for love. Love strives in hurting. If u don’t get hurt, u don’t learn how to love. Love doesn’t hurt all the time, though the hurting is still there to test u and to help u grow.

Don’t find love, let love find u. tat’s why it’s called falling in love because u don’t force yourself to fall. U will juz fall. U cannot finish a book without closing its chapters. If u want to go on, then u have to leave the past as u turn the pages.

Love is not destoryed by a single failure nor won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, relearning, discovering, rediscovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when u want to hold on and holding on when u need to let go.

We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse. But don’t ever the same mistake of riding the same one that threw u the first time.

Fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain. Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart but it oso can carve wonderful images into the soul tat last for a lifetime!

Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling, It should inspire u and give u joy and strength. But sometimes the things tat give u joy can oso hurt u in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom tat they choose to be and where they choose to be.

For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years, u should give thanks, for u noe, that these were the things which helped u grow. Loving someone means giving him the freedom to find his or her way, whether it leads towards u or aways from u.

When u give ur heart to someone, u’re also giving him or her the power to tear and break ur heart into pieces. Love is a painful risk to take but the risk muz be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then u’ll experience the fullness of humanity and tat’s LOVE.

Only love can hurt your heart, fill u wif desires and tear u apart. Only love can make u cry and only love noes why. If u’re not ready to cry, if u’re not ready to take the risk, if u’re not ready to feel the pain. then u’re not ready to fall in love. There was a time in our lives when we become afraid to fall in love because everytime we do, we get hurt, then I figures tat’s why it’s called falling in love…

Please leave some comments on my cbox whether u agree to this…Thanks babes and dudes…. (^_^)

Love,
JKD

So, what are your thoughts on this now after 4years? those who had faithfully reading my blog since those blogger days, did you felt any changes in me about love??

Short update on my Accounts being hacked…

Jan — Wed, 03 Mar 2010 10:50:43 +0000

To my readers, please note that my FaceBook, Gmails accounts and MSN have been hacked by some hackers…

I will be making my new email address soon…but it would be “something”@jankaren.com…

As for the “something” before @jankaren.com, I love to hear some comments / ideas from my readers…So, put on your thinking caps and think of an new email address for me…

Winner might get a present from me if I were to use the suggested idea!!!HURRY and join in the fun!!! =D

I miss my old blog address… =(

Jan — Sat, 05 Dec 2009 05:56:19 +0000

Apparently, blogger wasn’t really happy with my blog or email address…

They close my previous blog and the gmail address which is linked to it…I wrote a couple of emails to them but to no avail…one of the gmail staff replied me but he had referred me to another department which until today, they have no time to read or reply to my email…in fact, this is quite irritating because I didn’t know that their efficiency was that lousy…

I had a couple of classic blog entries which I remember and I hope I could share it with all of you on this new blog address…I hope my readers, whether you’re new reader or readers since my previous blog, enjoy the blog entries in the near future… =)

Working in Progress

Jan — Sat, 15 Aug 2009 09:44:51 +0000

This site might be the what you’re guessing it to be… But this site is still W.I.P. … come back in a few weeks time to check out this new blog… You would be able to experience a different perspective of my life…

Stay tunes, Folks… I will not disappoint your expectation… =)