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15
Jul
The Finale of a chapter in my life
Jan

It is the finale.

I did not expect this would be the end between me and him. We were quarreling about nonsensical stuffs that I do not see a point in talking about at all. He raised his voice at me over the phone. When I wanted to speak, he spoke louder to cover over my voice. Although I was at a verge of throwing my worst temper at him, I stopped myself by hitting my pillow. I teared a couple of times while trying to talk when he did not gave me a chance to explain and speak what’s in my mind. After he had quieten down, I said in a very calm and composed manner, “Let’s break up.”. I guess it marked the end of my hopes and dreams to have a “happily ever after” ending with him. I gave up, putting my hands up and surrender and hanging the white flag above my door. All he wanted for me is to understand him better and all I wanted was for him to understand me better. Both individuals from different back ground, different past experiences and different up bringing trying their best to compromise each other but failed.

He was younger than me by 2 years. Perhaps different mentality? Or does it boils down to my bad temper, self-centered and unreasonable behavior? I had been really angry and pissed with him, but I have never ever threw my temper on him because I love him. He had threw his bad temper at me before. I forgave him time to time again, in the hope of him changing for the better for our future. I had to admit he changed a couple of his bad behavior for us. It still boils back to his character and personality, I guess. Like the phrase “Leopards will never change it spots”.

Perhaps, this was Fate playing upon us. Or maybe we were never meant to be together… …

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03
May
An interesting post from my old blog address…
Jan

I found this old Word document file while clearing my desktop…I clicked opened and I saw this post from my previous blogger addressed blog…Suddenly, I remembered that I did save this post to let Vincent Lau to read what I wrote on my blog before…by the way, my old blog was on private and I didn’t wanted my friend to read the whole chuck of my life, so I showed him a couple of posts…hmmm…now I’m wondering where are the other posts that I saved for his viewing…

Here it goes…

What is L.O.V.E ???
Saturday, December 30, 2006

I have been having sleepless nites this few days and i would love to share wif all of u my dear friends a little piece of my mind as you will never thought that JKD could be such a “thinking” person… :)

When u thk of ur past love, u may view it as a failure. But when u find a new love, u view the past as a teacher.In the game of love, it doesn’t really matter who won or who lost. What is important is u noe when to hold on and when to let go…

U noe u really love someone when u want him or her to be happy, even is his or her happiness means tat u’re not part of it.Everything happens for the best. If the person u love doesn’t love u back, don’t be afraid to love someone else again, for u’ll nv noe unless you give it a try.

U’ll nv truly love a person u love unless u risk for love. Love strives in hurting. If u don’t get hurt, u don’t learn how to love. Love doesn’t hurt all the time, though the hurting is still there to test u and to help u grow.

Don’t find love, let love find u. tat’s why it’s called falling in love because u don’t force yourself to fall. U will juz fall. U cannot finish a book without closing its chapters. If u want to go on, then u have to leave the past as u turn the pages.

Love is not destoryed by a single failure nor won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, relearning, discovering, rediscovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when u want to hold on and holding on when u need to let go.

We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse. But don’t ever the same mistake of riding the same one that threw u the first time.

Fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain. Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart but it oso can carve wonderful images into the soul tat last for a lifetime!

Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling, It should inspire u and give u joy and strength. But sometimes the things tat give u joy can oso hurt u in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom tat they choose to be and where they choose to be.

For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years, u should give thanks, for u noe, that these were the things which helped u grow. Loving someone means giving him the freedom to find his or her way, whether it leads towards u or aways from u.

When u give ur heart to someone, u’re also giving him or her the power to tear and break ur heart into pieces. Love is a painful risk to take but the risk muz be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then u’ll experience the fullness of humanity and tat’s LOVE.

Only love can hurt your heart, fill u wif desires and tear u apart. Only love can make u cry and only love noes why. If u’re not ready to cry, if u’re not ready to take the risk, if u’re not ready to feel the pain. then u’re not ready to fall in love. There was a time in our lives when we become afraid to fall in love because everytime we do, we get hurt, then I figures tat’s why it’s called falling in love… :)

Please leave some comments on my cbox whether u agree to this…Thanks babes and dudes…. (^_^)

Love,
JKD

So, what are your thoughts on this now after 4years? those who had faithfully reading my blog since those blogger days, did you felt any changes in me about love??

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17
Dec
Which country should I stop and put my foot step prints on???
Jan

So, yesterday was the end of my Law module and I went to 313@Somerset…Forever21 is 4 levels high…it was filled with so many women…ranges from 12 – 30+…each level depicts a different concept of F21…beautifully done…love the chandelier hang elegantly down at the main entrance…and Zara is 3 floors…nothing much to expect from Zara’s decorations…bought couple of accessories from F21…they are so cheap and pretty… =) after my exam, I was so tired and I couldn’t peck myself up with everything…from lemon favored fisherman’s friend to walking pass the shops that were on sale in Centerpoint…nothing caught my attention…even my favorite clothing brand Mango was having a sale up to 50% off all regular prices…But F21 caught my attention…I look very forward to all the newly opened shopping malls in Singapore…One day, I believe Orchard Road will be one of the best shopping location for tourist…Although some brands are still not brought into Singapore…

After staying so many years in Singapore, I’m already so localized…From the accent of my Aussie English to now, the accent of Singaporean & some slang of British English…and my taste of food…from light and simple favors to spicy and strong favors…at this point of time, you might have started thinking why did I start this topic???No link and so random, right???

In fact, its neither no link nor so random…But I was thinking about leaving Singapore…Because I have a couple of choices offered to me…firstly, my company’s main company’s lady boss, my god mum, wants me to learn new things and the way they operate the company in Japan…Secondly, I also would be in Japan but this is to help my uncle with his Japan travel agency…Thirdly, getting my ass back to Hong Kong to help my dad’s family business because my cousins and nephews are not showing any interest in the food industry line…Apparently, its a chain of restaurants that I would be mending if I were to head over there…And Lastly, Back to my country, Australia…most of my relatives are living in Aussie…and I miss my darlings (Golden Retrievers, house & R34)….I have been given a chance to swap my nationality from this current place as I have been living here for 12 years…I didn’t gave them a reply or shown any interest on this offer… =) smart aye?

I still cant make up my mind on what I really want to do or where I would want to stay…With such circumstances that had happened in my family, I’m having a very hard time to decide now…I want to get this over by the first half of next year…I hope I could…

Update on my uncle

He went for a CT scan…Apparently, the results doesn’t reflect a good sign on his health…I guess the 1 year period for him to live is for real and it is so confirmed already…Now, I’m trying to fork out 2 evenings in a week of my time to accompany him…I brought him a HUGE stack of DVDs over to his house…we were watching all the comedy and laughing like some lunatic…we were sitting beside each other and munching on homemade pop-corn…I didn’t know that his entertainment system was such a good one…love the sound effects…if the room was sound proof from the other human activities in the house, it would be like a cinema… =) I remembered my uncle and me were laughing so much that he smacked his hand on my thighs and I saw his gratefulness of me doing such a little thing like bringing a couple of DVDs to occupy his time and accompanying him… =) When he knows that I was bored with nothing to do, he would try his best to keep me entertained by showing me the cook books he bought and showing off to me that he had learned most of the dishes and he could cook any of them for me…he kept asking me to pick a dish out for him to cook for me… =) he’s such a nice uncle… I love him so much… =) I pray to God everyday to wish that his health would improve and asked my beloved Aunt Tina to bless him everyday when I pass by the church where she was laid to rest at, while I’m on my way to school and going back home from school…it had been a routine for me to pray to God and wish everyone good health since young…i hope God could give him a miracle…

Alrighty, I’m going to stop writing and hit the sacks…I’m so tired from the meet up with a High School friend at Thomson Plaza’s Starbucks…She was talking to me for hours and I listened and gave suggestions and advises… =)

Good night…

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